*Black Dog!
To you I shall never surrender.
I mistakenly assumed that you’d been tamed.
You proved me wrong.
My guard was down
When you turned with a growl,
Feral and furious and ferocious.
But I AM wild and wily, too;
And I choose
Mastery over you.
So heel!
Back off and back down!
Shattered and battered’s how I feel today
Simply can’t sort myself out
Black dog and doom set up camp on my chest
My ere-conquered demons pound out
Blue and dismayed at not one thing at all,
I AM feeling not nearly myself
Anxious and edgy, so tired I might fall,
Must release this,
Must sit down and write.
Deep, full breath
Lift, release anxiety
Pressing on my chest
Relief
I try to be zen and centered and balanced and cool.
I pride myself on being accepting and, if not attached, then nonjudgmental.
But sometimes I fail. The truth is, I have not developed appreciation for a number of things.
Here is the list, in no particular order:
Leave me a comment or a link to your post with your 10 things.
Oooh…. This could be fun!
Blue.
I know you.
Intimately.
Ours
Was my first
Long-term
Relationship.
With you,
I spent
Too many
Pacing late nights
and
Anxious, wee-hour mornings.
Blue.
Me and you
In the kitchen, stewing
On bent knees, pleading
On the interchange, scheming
Dreaming.
For years
You held court,
Torturously
Twisting the past,
Plaiting the present
and
Tainting my tomorrows.
Blue
I fought you.
With intellect, through sheer neglect
Using prayer and mantra
Swear and tantra
Battling long
And strong
Until finally, I knew
What to do
To vanquish you,
Blue.
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It was so simple.
Add yellow.